I was anxious for your answer on the fear question. Thought you wouldn’t answer it. Yep, it is scary to suffer for the whole life. However, be sure there are hearts out there ready and willing to relief your suffering, sharing love and understanding, and turn your pain into joy. It is just a matter of you to allow them to do so. And mine is among them. :)
- anonymous.
you’re very kind, and i really appreciate where your words are coming from. it’s just, that’s part of the fear. that although there’ll be people and times to distract me, maybe that’s all they’ll do. distract. you know? i want to be free.
Who do you think stands between you and happiness?
- anonymous.
me. this thing inside me that i can’t diminish.
What do you fear most?
- anonymous.
being like this, suffering, for the rest of my interminable life. that’s what i fear most.
Do you think crying is a sign of weakness or strength?
- anonymous.
both or neither. i think it’s necessary. but maybe i’m just saying that because i cry a lot and want to believe it’s productive.
“if a writer falls in love with you, you never die.”
Your blog continuously makes me feel less alone in the world. Thank you for sharing everything so honestly.
that’s a good thing to know. sometimes i feel self-conscious but when i started this blog i said i’d be honest. thank you for appreciating it.
- pull your life apart
- break it
- fracture every seam
- leave nothing but broken times and broken dreams
- how do you put it back together?
bit by bit, i guess i just wish i knew where to start
sat on the edge of your bed, i bring my naked knees into my chest and play my fingers through my red-tipped toes. are you bored of me? i ask in a voice i haven’t heard for years. you study me, shake your head, frown. of course not, you admonish, holding your hand out, flicking the ash off your cigarette. i feel like a troubled child. come here.
